ste_noni

I just got a call from my closest friend here in PR. I walk with her twice a week and her daughter is about Ellie's age and they get along really well. Anyway, she took a home pregnancy test about two weeks ago and it was positive. But...today she went to the doctor and didn't see anything. Given that she hasn't had her period, the embryo is either ectopic or growing slowly (either one not good) or she ovulated later than normal in her cycle (possible but she knows when she took the test and it has been about two weeks since then, so either way, she's close to 6 weeks).

She called me in tears just now frustrated about not knowing and scared and feeling stupid for assuming she's pregnant. I told her everything I know about pregnancy tests, early miscarriage, blood tests, HCG levels, and so on. I really hope the pregnancy turns out to be viable. I'm glad she called me but it was sort of a weird feeling to realize that *I'm* the person my friends call when they are concerned about a viable pregnancy.

I guess if there is a silver lining to miscarriage, that is it. I think the thing I hate the most about miscarriage is it robs you of that "Yay, I'm pregnant!" feeling for the rest of your life. I mean, you might be pregnant, but you know pregnancy !=baby every time.